The Seagull · Act 4

Nina: “I am a seagull” (Nina’s last-act speech)

What is happening, what every line means, how to perform it, and how to use it in an audition, with the full text.

The Offbook team

Oct 8, 2026

What is happening

This is Act 4 of The Seagull, in Constance Garnett’s translation. Two years have passed since Act 3. On a windy evening at Sorin’s country house by the lake, his nephew Konstantin Treplev, now a published writer, works in a drawing-room turned into a study. Konstantin’s mother, the famous actress Arkadina, has come back with her lover, the writer Trigorin, because Sorin is ill.

Nina grew up across the lake and dreamed of fame. Two years ago she went to Moscow to become an actress and to be with Trigorin. She had his child, the child died, and Trigorin tired of her and went back to Arkadina. She has been acting in provincial towns, badly by Konstantin’s account, and signing her letters to him “the Seagull.” That comes from Act 2, when Konstantin shot a seagull and laid it at her feet, and Trigorin jotted down “a subject for a short story”: a girl who lives by a lake, free and happy as a seagull, until a man comes by chance and destroys her.

Tonight Nina has come to Konstantin’s window. He tells her he still loves her, that he kisses the earth she walks on, and begs her to stay or to take him with her. She has an engagement for the winter and leaves in the morning, third class. As she gets ready to go, she asks whether Arkadina is in the house, and then this pours out. When she has gone, Konstantin tears up his manuscripts, leaves the room, and shoots himself.

Lines
29
Words
311
At 150 wpm
2.1 min
Form
Prose

The speech, beat by beat

The full text in 5 beats. Under each beat: what it means in plain English, and a note for playing it.

Lines 1–4 · I ought to be killed

  1. 1Why do you say that you kissed the earth on which I walked?
  2. I ought to be killed.
  3. I am so tired!
  4. If I could rest … if I could rest!

In plain English Why do you say you kissed the ground I walked on? I ought to be killed. I am so tired! If only I could rest, if only I could rest!

Acting note She is answering his declaration from a few moments ago, which she could not bear to hear. Chekhov has her bend over the table after line 2. The tiredness is real and physical: she has been walking around the lake for days, and soon she admits she is worn out and hungry.

Lines 5–10 · Seagull or actress

  1. 5I am a seagull. …
  2. No, that’s not it.
  3. I am an actress.
  4. Oh, well!
  5. He is here too. …
  6. 10Oh, well … it doesn’t matter … no. …

In plain English I am a seagull. No, that’s not it. I am an actress. Oh, well! (She hears Arkadina and Trigorin laughing and looks through the keyhole.) He is here too. Oh, well, it doesn’t matter. No.

Acting note Lines 5 to 7 are her two identities fighting: the destroyed bird and the working actress. Then the laughter through the wall: Trigorin, the man who left her, is in the next room. “It doesn’t matter” means exactly the opposite.

Lines 11–15 · How she lost it

  1. 11He did not believe in the stage, he always laughed at my dreams and little by little I left off believing in it too, and lost heart. …
  2. And then I was fretted by love and jealousy, and continually anxious over my little one. …
  3. I grew petty and trivial, I acted stupidly. …
  4. I did not know what to do with my arms, I did not know how to stand on the stage, could not control my voice.
  5. 15You can’t understand what it feels like when one knows one is acting disgracefully.

In plain English He didn’t believe in the theatre. He always laughed at my dreams, and little by little I stopped believing in them too and lost heart. Then I was tormented by love and jealousy and always anxious about my baby. I became small and shallow, and I acted stupidly. I didn’t know what to do with my arms or how to stand on the stage, and I couldn’t control my voice. You can’t understand how it feels to know you are acting disgracefully.

Acting note “He” is Trigorin; she never says his name. These are an actor’s real nightmares, described exactly: arms, standing, voice. Keep them specific. “My little one” is the child who died; touch it and move on, as she does.

Lines 16–22 · The seagull story

  1. 16I am a seagull.
  2. No, that’s not it. …
  3. Do you remember you shot a seagull?── 60-second cut ends here ──
  4. A man came by chance, saw it and, just to pass the time, destroyed it. …
  5. 20A subject for a short story. …
  6. That’s not it, though.
  7. What was I saying?

In plain English I am a seagull. No, that’s not it. Do you remember you shot a seagull? A man came along by chance, saw it, and destroyed it just to pass the time. A subject for a short story. That’s not it, though. What was I saying?

Acting note She is quoting Trigorin’s note from Act 2. She has lived out his plot, and she knows it. Then she pulls herself back (Chekhov has her rub her forehead) and fights to remember where she was going.

Lines 23–29 · Faith

  1. 23I am talking of the stage.
  2. Now I am not like that.
  3. 25I am a real actress, I act with enjoyment, with enthusiasm, I am intoxicated when I am on the stage and feel that I am splendid.── 90-second cut ends here ──
  4. And since I have been here, I keep walking about and thinking, thinking and feeling that my soul is getting stronger every day.
  5. Now I know, I understand, Kostya, that in our work—in acting or writing—what matters is not fame, not glory, not what I dreamed of, but knowing how to be patient.
  6. To bear one’s cross and have faith.
  7. I have faith and it all doesn’t hurt so much, and when I think of my vocation I am not afraid of life.

In plain English I was talking about the stage. I am not like that now. I am a real actress: I act with joy and passion, I am intoxicated on stage, and I feel I am wonderful. Since I came back here I have been walking and thinking, and I feel my soul growing stronger every day. Now I know, Kostya, that in our work, acting or writing, what matters is not fame or glory or the things I dreamed of, but knowing how to endure. To carry your cross and have faith. I have faith, and it doesn’t hurt so much, and when I think of my calling, I am not afraid of life.

Acting note This is her discovery, and the first time tonight she calls him “Kostya.” Whether it is true, or something she grips to stay on her feet, is your choice; the play leaves it open. Konstantin answers that he has no faith and no calling.

Hard words

WordLineMeaning
fretted12worried, tormented
my little one12her baby, who died
petty and trivial13small-minded and shallow
A subject for a short story20Trigorin’s words in Act 2, when he turned the dead seagull into an idea for a story about a ruined girl
intoxicated25drunk with excitement
To bear one’s cross28to carry one’s burden patiently, as Christ carried his cross
vocation29calling, life’s work

How to perform it

  • Play the objective. Nina came tonight to find out whether she still has a place in the world. In this speech she is trying to tell Konstantin, and herself, who she is now: not the destroyed seagull but a working actress. Play the fight between those two answers, and let the second one win by the end.
  • Treat the fragments as thoughts, not mood. Garnett’s text is full of broken-off sentences marked with “…”. Each one is an impulse she abandons. Give each fragment its own reason to start and its own reason to stop, instead of one long sad tone.
  • Use Chekhov’s directions. She bends over the table, raises her head, hears the laughter, runs to the door and looks through the keyhole, turns back, and rubs her forehead. In an audition, keep the keyhole as a turn of the head toward an offstage door; it explains “He is here too.”
  • Find the arc and let the breath follow it: exhaustion (lines 1 to 4), confusion (5 to 10), confession (11 to 15), the seagull memory (16 to 22), clarity (23 to 29). Early on the breaths are short and broken; the last three lines need long, steady ones.
  • Know who you are talking to. Konstantin has just told her he kisses the ground she walks on, and he is the one person who followed her career from town to town. Line 15, “You can’t understand,” is said to someone who perhaps can.
  • Common mistakes: playing her as mad from the first line; wallowing in the sad middle; and giving the ending a tidy, uplifting glow. “It all doesn’t hurt so much” admits that it still hurts.

Using it in an audition

A demanding prose speech for a young woman, and a fine test of whether you can make broken thoughts specific. Nina is a girl when the play begins and two years older now, so it suits actors from about eighteen to their late twenties. The full speech runs about two minutes at a conversational pace, which is a good length. The 60-second cut marked in the text falls at line 18, which ends on a question (“Do you remember you shot a seagull?”), so it is not a good stopping place. The 90-second mark at line 25 (“I feel that I am splendid”) works as a hopeful ending but drops her lesson about patience and faith, which is the reason to do the speech. Use the full version if you can. Pair it with a quick comic piece, such as Rosalind’s “And why, I pray you?” or the Gaoler’s Daughter’s “Why should I love this gentleman?” Other translations word this speech differently; this page uses Garnett’s public domain version.

Nina, The Seagull, Act 4. Anton Chekhov. Public domain text.

How long it runs

PaceWords a minuteRun time
Deliberate1302.4 minutes
Conversational1502.1 minutes
Brisk1701.8 minutes

These are speech times before pauses. To time your own run, paste the text into the monologue timer. The cut marks in the text stop at a full sentence near 60 seconds (line 18) and 90 seconds (line 25).

Practice it: first-letter version

Each word is cut to its first letter. Say the whole line from the letters, then check the text. Make cues from any script with the first-letter memorizer.

W d y s t y k t e o w I w?
I o t b k.
I a s t!
I I c r … i I c r!
I a a s. …
N, t n i.
I a a a.
O, w!
H i h t. …
O, w … i d m … n. …
H d n b i t s, h a l a m d a l b l I l o b i i t, a l h. …
A t I w f b l a j, a c a o m l o. …
I g p a t, I a s. …
I d n k w t d w m a, I d n k h t s o t s, c n c m v.
Y c u w i f l w o k o i a d.
I a a s.
N, t n i. …
D y r y s a s?
A m c b c, s i a, j t p t t, d i. …
A s f a s s. …
T n i, t.
W w I s?
I a t o t s.
N I a n l t.
I a a r a, I a w e, w e, I a i w I a o t s a f t I a s.
A s I h b h, I k w a a t, t a f t m s i g s e d.
N I k, I u, K, t i o w—i a o w—w m i n f, n g, n w I d o, b k h t b p.
T b o c a h f.
I h f a i a d h s m, a w I t o m v I a n a o l.

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Questions actors ask

How long is Nina’s I am a seagull (Nina’s last-act speech) speech?

29 lines and 311 words. At 150 words a minute it runs about 2.1 minutes; a slower, more deliberate delivery at 130 takes about 2.4 minutes. Pauses add time, so time a full run out loud.

Is it a good audition monologue?

A demanding prose speech for a young woman, and a fine test of whether you can make broken thoughts specific. Nina is a girl when the play begins and two years older now, so it suits actors from about eighteen to their late twenties. The full speech runs about two minutes at a conversational pace, which is a good length. The 60-second cut marked in the text falls at line 18, which ends on a question (“Do you remember you shot a seagull?”), so it is not a good stopping place. The 90-second mark at line 25 (“I feel that I am splendid”) works as a hopeful ending but drops her lesson about patience and faith, which is the reason to do the speech. Use the full version if you can. Pair it with a quick comic piece, such as Rosalind’s “And why, I pray you?” or the Gaoler’s Daughter’s “Why should I love this gentleman?” Other translations word this speech differently; this page uses Garnett’s public domain version.

What is the fastest way to memorize it?

Learn it in sense units, not line by line: say each thought out loud until you can do it without looking, then add the next. The first-letter version below keeps the shape of every line in view while you test yourself.

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